Ugh. I haven’t felt this low in so long. Probably like a year. I feel like crying and ignoring everyone and not ever getting dressed and avoiding public and the outdoors. I feel so lost, like I was on a path and it seemed like a good one to travel for the time being, now there is a dead end…caused by a villain who has no sympathy for the average person chugging through life. I’m sick to fuck of Norwich, unsure whether all the things that were actually making it okay will disappear now everything has changed. I feel like I’m scrambling out of a ditch, scraping my nails down the side and not being able to get out. Funny thing is, this part of me hasn’t changed, the ability I have to sink into misery. However everything else about me has, I have motivation and more sense. I used to turn to food when I felt low now this doesn’t interest me. I don’t drink much anymore… I’ve tried exercising…nope. What the hell do I do to make myself feel better.